nyc, and the livin' ain't easy

oh these days have become so overwhelming. i feel like i am at constant tug of war with my emotions and my mental state. every time i think i have things under control in my life, things are thrown up in the air and i am back to juggling the chaotic shit in my life. i'm looking for stability, peeps. i'm looking for love in all the wrong places. i'm hoping for some order. but i don't seem to have any time to look for these things successfully. i was talking to garrett today and we are both people who are stressed out. but we concurred that it all comes with living and working in new york. you live here, you stress here. that's the gentlemen's agreement. there's never enough money (unless you have a trust fund). never enough time (this seems to be the case even if you don't have a job). never enough joy (because we know everyone in the city is depressed to some degree, and always hungry for more). so what does one do? what DOES one do?

i think one way to relieve stress is to watch the silly folks on family feud. dj told me that for one question: name something you hide and always have trouble finding. number one answer? money (of course). other answer that doesn't seem to make any sense? teeth. yep, teeth. that's comedy. pure comedy. i think they had to have made that one up.